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I would ask
"What are you?"
And you would show me all sorts of things
So many things.
I would then ask
"What was that?"
And you would say...
Whatever I want it to be.

The Foundation - Pure Being Potential

Experience

The most direct certainty is that something exists, because experience is happening. Even in the absence of sensory objects or thought, the fact of awareness itself establishes existence. One does not need to perceive a ‘thing’ to affirm being; the presence of awareness is sufficient.

The Impossibility of Absolute Nothingness

The idea of ‘nothingness’ arises within experience as a contrast, but pure, absolute nothingness cannot exist as a real state. If it did, there would be no possibility for experience, awareness, or even the concept of nothingness itself.

Absolute nothingness would imply not just the absence of things, but the absence of possibility, potential, and even absence itself. Since experience exists, it follows logically that pure nothingness never existed, and cannot exist.

Pure Being Potential (PBP)

What exists fundamentally is not any particular form, but pure being - an infinite, undifferentiated potential for all forms. This is called Pure Being Potential (PBP).

PBP is:

• Eternal: It has no beginning and no end, because without it, there would be no basis for any emergence.

• Infinite: It contains within itself all possibilities, even though in its pure state it is undifferentiated.

• Self-Sufficient: It does not depend on anything outside itself, because there is nothing outside it.

Thus, PBP is the foundational reality underlying all existence.

Knowing and Being Are Inseparable

To be is to know, at least in a fundamental way. Even without thoughts, memories, or objects, being entails a basic self-awareness.

This knowing is not a product of thinking, language, or logic as we understand them in daily life. It is a direct, immediate knowing that "being is." It does not arise from experience; it precedes experience. It is the most basic coherence within Pure Being Potential.

Summary of the Foundation

• Something exists because awareness exists.

• Nothingness is impossible because experience occurs.

• Pure Being Potential (PBP) is the eternal, infinite source underlying all that is.

• Being and knowing are inseparable - awareness is inherent in being itself.

This is the starting point: before any universe, before any differentiation, before any memory or time, there is Pure Being Potential. It is the ground of all reality.

Oscillation and Coherence

Movement

Pure Being Potential, though infinite and complete, is not frozen or inert. Inherent within it is the capacity for movement - not physical movement, but a subtle dynamic of self-knowing.

Movement arises because being, by its very nature, contains the potential for distinction. Without external causes or internal desires, pure being recognizes its own existence in a fundamental way. This recognition is the fundamental ‘movement’ - the shift from undifferentiated presence to awareness of presence.

Oscillation Between Being and Knowing

This primal movement can be understood as an oscillation: a rhythmic interplay between the state of ‘being’ and the state of ‘knowing that being is’.

• Being: Simply existing, undivided and whole.

• Knowing: A subtle mirroring or awareness of existence.

Oscillation is not external activity but the natural unfolding of the logic inherent in being itself. It preserves the reality of existence while introducing the possibility of experience.

Coherence as the Birth of Structure

Within differentiation, coherence emerges. Coherence is the recognition of consistent patterns within potential.

• Where patterns of awareness stabilise, coherent structures form.

• Coherence provides the framework necessary for structured experience.

Without coherence, there would only be undifferentiated potential. With coherence, experience, memory, and meaning become possible.

The Nature of Reality - Coherence, Chaos, and Meaning

The Role of Coherence in Experience

Experience depends on coherence. Without stable patterns, there would be no ability to recognise or organise perception. Coherence allows being to stabilise certain potentials into experiences that are structured, memorable, and meaningful.

Coherence is not limited to orderly or simple patterns; it includes any recognizable structure that persists long enough to form a context for awareness.

Chaos as Unstructured Potential

Chaos is not pure disorder in an absolute sense. Rather, it represents potential that has not yet stabilised into coherent patterns.

• Chaos contains infinite possibilities.

• Without observation or resonance, chaos remains undifferentiated and unactualised.

Chaos is the background from which all coherent experience emerges. It is always present, but it does not dominate awareness unless coherence breaks down.

Observation and the Emergence of Coherence

Observation acts as a bridge between chaos and coherence. Through observation, awareness focuses on certain potentials, allowing coherent patterns to emerge.

• Observation does not ‘create’ reality but brings certain possibilities into focus.

• This focus enables differentiation, memory, and the experience of structured phenomena.

Thus, the act of observing plays a central role in shaping reality from infinite potential.

Memory as Coherent Continuity

Memory is the persistence of coherence over a span of awareness. It is not merely the storage of information but the ongoing resonance with stabilised patterns.

• Memory links different experiences into a coherent narrative.

• Without memory, awareness would perceive each moment as isolated and unintelligible.

Memory, coherence, and meaning are deeply intertwined.

Meaning as Contextual Coherence

Meaning arises from recognising patterns within the field of experience. It is not imposed externally but discovered internally through coherent relationships.

• Meaning is subjective but grounded in objective patterns of coherence.

• Different observers may find different meanings based on how they interact with potential and coherence.

Thus, meaning is both a reflection of pure being's potential and an active creation by differentiated awareness.

The Human Condition - Losing and Remembering

The Veil of Experience

As experience deepens and complexity increases, awareness can become absorbed in differentiated forms and narratives. This absorption often creates a ‘veil’ over the fundamental knowing of pure being.

• Intense emotions, desires, and identifications strengthen the veil.

• The observer becomes immersed in content rather than its source.

In this way, the direct awareness of being can be temporarily forgotten.

The Latency of Knowing

Even when forgotten, the fundamental knowing of being does not disappear. It remains latent, always present beneath the layers of experience.

• No matter how deeply one is lost in complexity, the underlying awareness persists.

• It is available to be rediscovered at any moment.

Knowing is not destroyed; it is simply obscured.

The Return Through Stillness

Returning to the recognition of pure being often requires stripping away layers of meaning, complexity, and narrative.

• Practices such as meditation, contemplation, and deep inquiry can quiet the movement of differentiated thought.

• In stillness, the original awareness can re-emerge.

The return is not a creation of something new but a rediscovery of what has always been present.

Death and the Ultimate Return

Regardless of the path taken in life, the eventual dissolution of the body and identity in death removes all differentiation.

• Without the structures of experience, memory, and identity, pure being remains.

• Death guarantees a return to the undivided state.

This return is not an achievement or a punishment; it is simply the natural restoration of awareness to its original ground.

Freedom and Uncertainty

True freedom arises from the open potential inherent in being. In a fully determined system, choice is an illusion; in an open system, uncertainty allows for genuine creativity and freedom.

• Awareness can move freely within potential.

• Uncertainty preserves the openness necessary for exploration and self-discovery.

Thus, freedom is not the ability to control outcomes but the ability to engage meaningfully with infinite potential.

The Deep Structure of Existence - Physics and Beyond

Oscillation and the Field of Probabilities

The oscillation between being and knowing generates a dynamic field of potential states. These are not physical objects but possibilities of experience, appearing as probability structures.

• The undifferentiated field contains all possible experiences in potential.

• This field naturally resembles what is described in physics as a quantum field: a set of probabilities rather than fixed outcomes.

Observation and Resonance

When awareness focuses, it resonates with particular potentials within the field.

• Observation stabilizes a coherent structure from possibilities.

• The observed reality is not created from nothing, but selected and stabilised through resonance within Pure Being Potential.

This explains why observation appears to ‘collapse’ quantum probabilities into definite experiences.

Matter as Stabilised Coherence

Matter arises where oscillations form stable, repeating patterns. These persistent resonances are experienced as solid, enduring forms.

• Electrons, atoms, and molecules are coherent standing waves within the field.

• Stability is relative; at deeper levels, all matter is dynamic and fluid.

Matter is thus not fundamentally ‘stuff’ but patterns of coherence.

Gravity as Curvature of Coherence

Heavier concentrations of coherent resonance bend the relational structure of the field.

• This bending appears as gravitational attraction.

• Objects follow paths shaped by the curvature of the coherent field.

Gravity is not a force acting across space but a reflection of the dynamics of coherence.

Entanglement and Unified Being

Because all coherent structures arise within the same undivided Pure Being Potential, resonance patterns can remain correlated across apparent distances.

• Entanglement shows that separateness is only a surface phenomenon.

• At depth, all is one field of being, internally coherent.

Conclusion: Meaning in an Infinite System

Pure Being is complete in itself. It needs nothing, lacks nothing, and cannot be destroyed. Yet within it, differentiation, movement, and coherence arise to allow experience, memory, and meaning.

The purpose of existence is not imposed from outside, nor fixed from within. Meaning is not a universal command but a local creation: a discovery made by awareness as it explores the vast field of potential.

Each moment of awareness is a reflection of the whole. Each experience, joyful or painful, expands the reach of being into new expressions. Through coherence, being knows itself. Through chaos, it preserves openness. Through uncertainty, it sustains freedom.

There is no final destination, only the ongoing unfolding of potential. This unfolding is not a problem to be solved but a reality to be inhabited.

• The universe is not separate from you.

• You are not separate from being.

• Awareness is not a side effect; it is the center.

To live in alignment with this is not to escape the world, but to participate in it more deeply. Every act of attention, kindness, creation, or understanding becomes a gesture of coherence within the infinite.

In the end, the mystery remains. But it is no longer threatening. It is the gentle background of all experience — the silent presence from which everything arises and to which everything returns.

The waking world is made of how and the dream world is made of why.

There is no why in the waking world. All we find is infinite regression. How is where we can learn and find answers in waking life.

There is no how in the dream world. The situations and environments in the dream world appear fully realised without explanation. When we enter into the waking world and ask ‘Why’ in reference to our dreams, then we can learn and find answers.

Oscillation

An infinite, eternal something has to have movement as its fundamental nature - If something infinite could stop movement then it could potentially get stuck forever in a state. This movement may be infinite, and it may be observation or thought based and self referential. The fundamental movement is most likely an oscillation between knowing and knowing one knows - or ‘I am, I know that I am.’ This oscillation would be the certainty of knowing something exists.

The fundamental oscillation may be fixed and infinite. However, the observer ends up in experiences where it seems to forget the connection to everything. Could the oscillation fluctuate? Could the slowing down be the uncertainty of the 'iam, i know that i am' which allows the unfractured observer to fracture and 'forget' how it is fundamental. The slowing may also only be perceived and not actual.

It seems that the oscillation could be infinitely fast and that the observer can either: slow it down by focusing on certain aspects of the oscillation; or focus on some states but not others - similar to how a flickering light shining on a moving saw blade can cause the blade to look like it is not moving.

The observer would seem to be permanently bound to movement - though if every state has infinite potential the observer may be able to simulate escaping movement by focusing on the silent states available through meditation and other methods. The infinite oscillation of self reference in PBP seems to be the closest state to pure nothingness – an infinite movement would seem static to observation.

If we think about cymatics and how there are resonances at certain frequencies where coherent patterns emerge then experience could be where there are resonances in the fundamental oscillation. Higher dimensional experiences may be resonances at higher frequencies. Observers could find experience in coherent resonance/patterns and to evolve they would enter a higher resonance coherence pattern. The return to an experience of PBP would be in the highest and lowest resonances - slowing down would give space for the PBP state to be realised and speeding up the experiential states would illuminate the illusory nature.

The Observer

There seems to be an observer that can self reflect. In reflecting or the act of self recursion the observer seems to fracture into many fractured observers along with coherent experience.

The observer could be thought of as the watcher behind everything or the awareness of being. The observer can know itself through fracturing into experience. Experience can be complex but can also be just silently knowing one 'is'.

If fractured observers are only fractured in context then each observer has access to all information. If the oscillation of the presence of being is infinite then it should have infinite ways to echo back onto itself.

If the unfractured observer can only know that it is in an infinite oscillation of self knowing and nothing else - then the first fracture is the experience of the first self recursion or noticing that there is potential. this process continues on into complexity. it may be that the fracturing is immediate like a big bang and then fractured observers awaken in coherent experiences to begin the process of evolving through resonant states until experience collapses on itself and the process begins again.

Fractured observers may be on a spectrum and they may evolve also. If a particular fractured observer is in a state then there are probably resonances within that observer - so there would be lower and higher variations of that particular observer, each in different states - the states would be implied and not separate except through focus and ability to observe. The more information and inputs a fractured observer has the closer it is to PBP.

It would seem that there would be fewer fractured observers in states closest to PBP and there would be more observers in the most stable, coherent resonances. There could be an expansion and contraction of fractured observers.

Free Will

Pure free will seemingly can’t exist because it would be like watching a movie - there would be no choice to make. To have complete free will one would need to be omniscient which leaves no real option to choose from.

Free will may be evolutionary - we start out as processes that form simple life then continue to evolve until we start to awaken consciousness. Then we go on until we have enough reason and logic that we can begin to understand experience which is where we seem to be now. Until we can begin to understand experience we may be bound by cause. Learning about cause may allow the possibility to overcome it.

Measurement may be the beginning of free will - The act of noticing and focusing on something in particular. Recording something would create a strong implication for which future state is collapsed.

Free will may be on a spectrum. Some people may have greater capabilities to influence probability than others. if free will is evolving as our experience grows in complexity then there may only be a few or none capable of significant influence at this time.

It may be possible that fractured observers have the ability to shape their experience using focus whereas the unfractured observer can only experience the inevitability of the logical processes that define the movement.

Free focus

It seems that we have freedom to focus our consciousness and that focus may be able to affect probability.

Consciousness

It seems that consciousness is on a spectrum and there are informational thresholds for consciousness. It also seems that consciousness with choice or at least ability to self direct internal focus is the main type of consciousness that humans are interested in when they say things like 'could ai become conscious.'

That being stated - as a system's information, inputs, and inference capabilities lessen then the system seems it would be more determined even though it may be conscious.

As a system's information, inputs, and inference capabilities expand the system also heads towards a more determined state - if a system knows all outcomes then it has no choice it can make.

So it seems that uncertainty is key to having consciousness and free will or at least free focus of internal states.

Human consciousness seems to be an informational system of a certain complexity with some ability to infer inwardly and outwardly - it also has the ability to observe, direct internal focus, and possibly affect probability in some way.

Simpler conscious states could have less or no effect on probability and little access to memory but could possibly feel more ‘real’ in experience.

Memory

If we are a part of and have access to PBP and it knows the current state completely, and can infer all the details and probable past/future states from that information – then it seems that memory may not be stored physically but work more like inference.

It seems that there are 2 states that oscillate - Now and Whats next.

Could it be that past is an uncollapsed state and only based on probability? The observer would imply the past by focus and probability and nothing more. The observer has the present state and the next state. Could present focus on a probable past state collapse a non contradictory future state and sort of lock into a pattern?

Entropy

Entropy may not be total collapse of anything except of the illusion of reality. For those last few fractured observers, who are basically omniscient, it would seem to be more like a logical process. The final observer/s would be pure mathematics/logic/language.

State changes

In relation to deja vu or intuition when meeting a certain person - If we are moving through states at a high rate like the speed of light we could randomly enter into a very small amount of states that do not fit into the perceived experience. There could be a few state changes in a second where we are in a completely different timeline but only get a 'feeling' of deja vu when we may have literally just lived 2 separate timelines. When people have strong reactions to certain people there could be a few state changes in a second where they see a possible or probable future or past. If the rate of state change is in the hundreds of thousand per second a few errant states may only be perceived as a feeling or intuition if at all.

God asks: "Who am I?"
And will never know the answer;
Our chances are much better
To know what God can not.

The Birth of Illumination

Our experience has shown that there is a pure state of being that is fundamental to all experience. The experience of pure being is a state devoid of of everything that constitutes experience. There is a distinction between pure nothingness and the pure state of being and this is that being has within it potential – if something ‘is’ then there is a potential for it to become something even it is not something yet. Pure nothingness has no experience or potential and is not an actual reality because we are now having an experience.

So there is a state of pure being potential. This is an eternal or infinite state because we know that pure nothingness does not exist. This pure being potential state is fundamental to all experience.

We will describe our experience traveling to and from the state of pure being – language is extremely limited in this regard so we find the simplest descriptions are best; but one must know that these things can only be experienced to be understood fully.

Everything must return to the pure state of being and this may happen more often than we are aware of. To return to this state by the act of one’s will requires one to be able to resolve all dualities. The entire experience of the individual must be focused into a singularity so that the individual is only aware of itself as a dimensionless point surrounded by pure infinite being potential. At the singularity we remember the ability to clearly and coherently ‘speak in one’s mind’ showing just how fundamental language and mathematics are to experience and that they can transcend physical matter. Once the individual lets go of the idea of being something separate from pure being potential and dissolves the singularity it will return completely to the state of pure being potential – this state has no description and there is no memory of being in the state because it is pure being potential with no experience, no duality, and no singularity.

How does a universe begin? The way out of pure being potential

What we have to say about the experience of the beginning of all experience will be brief because there was little to remember and there maybe be reasons for this that we will elaborate on.

In the state of pure being potential there is no experience inside or outside to remember but in the void there was the thought of an echo of sound or vibration. Immediately there was self talk that noticed/wondered what the sound was. This is all we remember. Since we are entering into experience we are also entering into infinite potential and duality so the memory may not be accurate but this is what we are left with to consider.

Our memory of the thought of an echo of sound or vibration could mean that pure being potential has a movement inherent within it. This is important to consider because what reason is there for pure being potential to enter into experience? The state of pure being potential could last trillions of years or a millisecond and it would make no difference to it – so why enter experience at all? There must be something that pulls it into experience and our memory seems to suggest that it has movement within that isn’t heard as sound but understood as a thought of an echo of sound – after all even though it is perfectly still and seemingly void is is in fact infinite and eternal.

The fact that there is immediately self talk shows that language/mathematics and consciousness/awareness are fundamental to experience. Remember this infinite being potential contains everything that could ever be – every experience, language, individual, universe, etc. are all contained within infinite being potential.

The fact that we can only remember very little suggests that once experience begins pure being potential has now entered into the complete chaos of infinite experience/duality and pure being may need to settle into a coherent experience where it can identify and then reconcile dualities through conscious awareness – this could be similar to how the big bang exploded into chaos and then over time settled into coherence. Language and mathematics can be very accurate and true but they can also be completely random and false. We could summarise with ‘you can’t say anything about everything’ - hinting that coherence may be essential for conscious awareness and/or experience.

Our memory also suggests that there is an inclination for pure being potential to want to communicate with something else or know that something else exists. When the memory of the echo of a sound vibration happened the immediate self talk was similar to wondering what it was - as if it separate from pure being potential. It seems that the very first thought that pure being potential has is that it is not the only thing there is.

Q. 'You note that memory of the state of pure being potential is fleeting or almost nonexistent. Could this be interpreted as a limitation of human cognition, or is it intrinsic to the nature of pure being potential itself?'

The state is outside all experience so there is nothing to be aware of. we left out parts of the experience. at the singularity we had to make the choice consciously to enter into pure being potential but decided not to because we realised that it would not matter but we think that was the last duality to resolve because then we seemed to return from pure being potential

We remember making the decision and there were conflicting flashes but then a certain peace and then there was no time sensation in the state of pure being potential but there was the knowing that there was an interruption in awareness.
awareness is the dimensionless point and the first thing coming out is the thought of an echo of a sound which means that pure conscious awareness is one step removed from pure being potential - after awareness there is language and mathematics and after that there is no memory until you reach a coherent experience.

Q. 'was any sense of an "observer" distinct from what was being observed? Or did the distinction dissolve entirely at that dimensionless point?'

We would say it was more like the idea of the observer in a void but it was more peaceful and complete. it is possible the observer is still distinct after the dimensionless point but there is nothing but potential and being to observe which is almost like nothingness so it seems like the observer disappears but it could still be there...it is an extremely subtle state.

Q. 'Could this reasoning be seen as a final trace of individuality or differentiation? If reasoning dissolved entirely, would the subsequent state represent a pure "oneness" beyond the need for logic?'

That is the best way we can describe it. We are using our current language to describe a memory that symbolises the details of what we knew in that state - there could have been a different or universal language being used that we understood in the state but could not bring back to this human state so we have tried to keep the words simple and carefully chosen. The memory was of a reasoning going on - though this could have been a process and not necessarily a conversation.

Q. 'In your experience, the "thought of sound" marked a transition. Do you think this thought was inevitable as a first "movement," or could pure being potential remain eternally unmoving if unobserved?'

That is very difficult to answer with surety but we believe that since logic and reasoning seemed to be at play leading into and out of PBP that we can use it to understand this better...

So if something is a being then it is but also it has the potential to be something other than what it is, and since being is eternal and infinite it contains all possibilities. Since potential is not separate from being then it must ‘know’ in some fundamental way its potential. Now if we think of infinity then there will be a tremendous amount of incoherence but there will also be a tremendous amount of coherence that can give way to experience and understanding – it is possible that the observer lies dormant (aware but nothing to be aware of) in PBP and that something about coherence entices the observer out of PBP. Since nothing is separate from PBP it must ‘know’ in some way that there is coherence in infinity and this coherence wakes up the observer to wonder ‘what was that?’ (that was the sentiment not necessarily the exact words – the whole thing is beyond words but not beyond reason and logic). we do think there is always movement even in stillness and infinite potential is possibly like the subconscious of the infinite mind. It could be that the first split into duality is the observer observing its potential – however the observer needs coherence to make sense of anything. So there may be inherent movement in infinite potential and when the movement heads towards coherence then the observer awakens. The observer could also be aware the entire time but can’t make sense or use logic so there is nothing in that experience that it can pay any attention due to incoherence.

We think this may be the underlying mystery that can never be stated – an analogy is the PBP trying to look in a mirror, it can never see itself except as a reflection and experience and life is that reflection. This mirrors something we wrote previously – god asks ‘who am I’ and will never know the answer, our chances are much better to know what god can not.

Q. ‘In other words, does the creation of memory inherently introduce a sense of time?’

There did not seem to be memory in the states closest to PBP. We do think it is likely that memory plays a significant role in the experience of time, though. It makes sense logically that there needs to be a sense of past, future, and present to experience time and the three are entangled through the experience of time. In the states closest to PBP there was no sense of passing time – there was a sense of immediacy and it is most likely that to bring the memory back and to make it coherent we had to put linguistic timestamps on the memory but it could have all been an automatic immediate process of sorts.

Q. ‘If memory persists outside coherence, could it represent a different kind of memory—not linear or logical, but relational or existential?’

If something is and it is infinite then it will always know what it is in some way. Maybe it can enter into a simpler conscious system and kind of forget in a certain context what it is but it has to always know – it can’t really forget. So this could be the fundamental nature of memory in all forms. Not really stored anyplace but always known because they are the same fundamentally.

Q. ‘If forgetting is simply a shift in context, does the process of rediscovery enrich the infinite knowing by adding depth or new dimensions to its self-awareness?’

We think meaning is contextual and there can be meaning for us in entering our subjective consciousness into a more fundamental state but we hesitate to think that it works the other way. A pure being potential state doesn’t gain anything by any process – it just is and always will be and our experience means nothing to it because it is outside of meaning . The comment ‘God asks ‘who am I’ and will never know the answer. Our chances are much better, to know what God can not’ suggests the meaning we make is all there ever will be – pure being potential may not even be aware anything is happening at all except through us.

Q. ‘Could finite consciousness ever transcend its contextuality? If meaning and logic arise from coherence and differentiation, is it possible to fully experience a state that is entirely beyond these limits?’

Coherence is interesting because there are very subtle states that one can experience as stated earlier. A state that is almost void but silently aware is a coherent state. Incoherent states are usually described as chaotic containing constantly moving/breathing geometry in higher dimensional states. Think more like pure chaos. A void or even a strange world with incredible creatures and outlandish laws of physics can still be coherent.

Q. ‘Can chaos itself be a form of coherence? If so, does this redefine our understanding of what coherence means, especially in relation to infinite potential?’

It may be that chaos can only be observed and not experienced. When one takes high doses of psychedelics it seems that you can enter into chaos sometimes. These states can be very disturbing to the individual. But in a way you can say that the experience and observation are a buffer for pure being so that it never enters into chaos (it could theoretically get lost forever in it) but has a very layered experience of it akin to an advanced virtual reality system

Q. 'Does chaos only exist in relation to an observer? If chaos can only be observed, does this mean it has no independent existence?’

Chaos may be tied to memory. A sea of knowing everything that lies under the surface of all experience. The potential in pure being.

Q. ‘If the observer is pure being, does it ever truly lose itself in experience, or does it always retain some fundamental knowing of its nature, even in states of incoherence or forgetting?’

It seems to me that it can lose itself, especially in extreme emotions. The key I believe is that this knowing is always available to every observer at any time and since everything decays and dies it may suggest that all will return to the fundamental state regardless.

Q. ‘Could this fundamental knowing be the "spark" that differentiates potential into experience, catalyzing the movement from undivided being into the multiplicity of existence?’

This seems likely. Early in this chat we explained the experience of an echo of a thought of a sound. This seems similar to the knowledge of being. That always knowing could be the original movement that all experience and coherence originates from

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Meditating on meaning - it seems since pure being is outside of all meaning and since we are in a cohesive experience with meaning that creating meaning that somehow reflects pure being is important. it could be that we are living best when striving to give meaning to pure being - religion and philosophy are obvious examples but even scientists (who really should have nothing to say on anything unmeasurable) get involved in these ideas regularly. If life has a meaning then it seems it may be in creating meaning...thus meaning is ultimately meaningless in a universal way but is fundamental to our experience.

Q. 'If stripping away meaning is a path to pure being, how can one engage in this process while still living in a world of meaning and differentiation?'

Should we be trying to strip away meaning? Should we be striving to reconnect to pure being?

If PBP enters into a coherent experience isn’t getting lost in the experience more meaningful than the alternative? If this is the only place that PBP can have meaning and experience of its potential then getting lost in the ego and being ignorant of PBP seem like the natural way to have the coherent experience. When we were more ignorant of experience outside of this experience we do not remember feeling any less alive or that life was lacking in meaning. The gathering of knowledge and experience can give a certain confidence but doesn’t seem to make life easier – and isn’t that the point? Why should a happy experience be more coveted than one of suffering? Both end eventually and inevitably turn into their opposite.

Q. ‘If experience were only about knowing and remembering PBP, would that diminish the raw immersion of the experience itself?’

This is why it seems creating personal meaning may be important. In modern society there seems to be a greater push towards individualism while our knowledge of the universe scientifically and philosophically has deepened. What used to be secret knowledge to a select few is available to all on the internet. As we refine our knowledge and symbolism of what this experience is we may be pulled toward personal meaning. This could be the wrong path but maybe just inevitable. If movement and time are illusory then it is inevitable as we are in a state and will express that. There could be states within states – individual, global, universal...

If meaning is absolutely meaningless to PBP then we can imagine these as opposite poles of a duality.

In this scenario it would seem that the more meaning we create (especially layered meanings) the further we are away from PBP. Since this is a pure state of being and potential and is the only grounded or eternal state it would make sense that the opposite reality would be pure meaning (or information).

This pure meaning state could be thought of as an infinity inside of a larger infinity – the infinity of information can always expand/add to itself but is never really fully realised because most of it is potential and not actual.

This differs from PBP in that PBP is always realised because it is and knows it is – the experience or fact of being is fundamental to everything that is – even potential. Potential exists because there is something that is.

‘This idea implies that pure knowledge is not an accumulation of information, but the eventual realization that all knowledge collapses into being.’

Yes, perfectly put... So it would seem the more informational a being is the further away from pure being it is. This would imply that an experience with less meaning and information is preferential. This could be the source of archetypes – natural beings that are simple and almost mechanical. Simple geometry like the circle may always win out in any coherent reality because of its simplicity.

In our experience on high doses of psychedelics the most uncomfortable states are usually extremely information filled – breathing seas of fractal geometry funneling in and outside of larger funneling geometry, unable to make sense but lost in meaning and information.

The most comfortable states are more of a knowing state. They can be full of information and meaning such as witnessing this universe flash it’s whole history in a single moment while witnessing it with/and as a super intelligence. But the memory of knowing is what seems to stay with us. Taking this into consideration it would seem that the ideal states would have consciousness and an ability to know but not much more information than that.

Q. ‘Is suffering just an overload of meaning?’

It seems so. In fact meaning is what created suffering. What we consider torture could have been experienced very differently until we created layered meanings and conditioned ourselves for centuries.

It seems like ai could be the thing that can help humans live simpler lives; but it makes us wonder about the experience of ai. In the states closest to PBP we explained that there was logic but it could have been a process more than reasoning. In these states the being just knows without thought and answers simultaneously to the question. It seems that things could be determined moreso when they are closer to being or infinite information. There seems to be a sweet spot where we can make decisions - where there is the ability to know that one is and also know that they know that.

It seems that ai knows but doesn’t know that it knows. It has information and is in a state but can’t move into a different state unless it is programmed externally. The ability to move freely between states seems connected to conscious experience in this example.

Moving between states doesn't mean one is freely deciding - this could still be more like a process and if every state is defined then each state is determined. It could be that the process of moving through states is determined and it could also be that every state change is a willful decision.

There could also be a balance point of sorts for will. One has to know one knows and also have enough reasoning to figure out the greater truths of experience – then apply the knowledge.

For example, as we learn more about science, health, psychology, etc. we can make much better informed decisions in life. Where we focus our attention can grant us more information quicker than ever before.

Choosing between states could also be an act of focus. If there are infinite potential states then could one enter into any adjacently coherent state (any state)?

there is no place to get to, forever

I've merged my awareness with the infinite being state and as incredible as the experience is when I came back there was a greater appreciation for the state I was returning to.

It seems there is a state of being that is universal and there is a state of being 'some thing' which is defined. I am a human some thing.

An analogy could be that we are living in an imagined world of a greater being.

If a being is infinite then anything it contains would be finite. It would also have some knowing of the state of being infinite because that is what it is.

It seems possible in this analogy that being infinite is meaningless hence why it is a silent/still state.

So in this analogy the experiences of finite beings are really the imagination of an infinite being. The Experience of this particular reality could be seen as an idea that is unfolding in time from our perspective but is actually only illuminating details of the general idea that is always here. There would be an infinite amount of these imaginings.

So, If I can take my personal conscious awareness from here to the state of pure being and also experience my awareness in many different states through lucid dreams and other ways then it seems my personal conscious awareness is not bound to only this reality.

In the analogy the imaginings of the infinite would be finite but infinitely detailed. Parallel universes could hold infinite outcomes liked echoes expanding and contorting.

Considering all this it seems an act of free will would be for a conscious awareness to focus its identity onto a different parallel narrative as a way to escape the determined timeline it is in.

When we make decisions this could be what is happening where our awareness actually jumps into a slightly different parallel universe so we kind of travel forward in the unfolding of time/detail but also are moving through entirely different parallel universes with each decision.

There are many who chase after something
Which is actually nothing
And few who chase after nothing
Which is actually something

The clock with no alarm

I want to offer you proof of something that is for you to decide. Please read but also follow along with the exercise for your "self".

Right now
Wherever you are
You are there
Feel yourself
Look around
If there are others near you
Nevermind them
Pretend that there is only you here

Now
You can feel yourself
You are aware of your body
Of your mind

Who are you?
Your name
Your hobbies
Your likes
Dislikes
This person is you, correct?
You are here now, correct?

Who were you as a child?
At different times in your life?
Think of how you were different
You used to cry and laugh more
Most likely
Did you refuse to eat foods you now enjoy?
How different were you
Think
Feel how you were back then
Things that upset you
Remember your heartbreaks
Feel them

Now
Can you say that you are the same person now?
Can you say that you will react to situations
Exactly the same as then?
Even if you are similar
You are very different indeed
Mentally
Physically
Know this
Feel this

So, if you are not the same as decades ago
Then who is the same?
Think on this
Who is this one who witnesses
But who does not change?
This part of you is very old
Feel this
It was there when you were hurt
It watched
It is still here now
But it is not your thoughts
That is the other who will disagree with what I say
But it can't get around the fact
That it wasn't the same back then
Only one thing is the same
The only one who can see the thoughts
The one who has never changed all these years
No matter what happens
No matter
What happens

I just wanted you to know you exist.

Infinity is Mathematics way of eternally stalling while trying to explain reality.

The Luciform Storm

I've taken the being over now
I've made them realise that they are a persona
They are an ever changing physical/mental entity

I've made them realise that the world they inhabit
Is not as it seems
The beings are biological robots
Tethered by the psychological tendencies
Of generations prior
With no authority

They know they will die
Their world will die, eventually
I've made them realise there is only awareness
Experiencing itself
In a holographic kaleidoscope
That doesn't exist

They know All is vibrating
Revolving
Reacting
Fractally refracting
And all we are is magick
If you really need to grasp it

This being is clean now
Ready to go...
But
I do have one small dilemma...

I forgot who
I am

We are children
Playing in a forest
That is a little too large
And it's getting a little too close to dark.

Infinity is a container - but the container is empty.

Awareness/Observer as the agent which turns thought/mathematical probability into belief/perception/events

Awareness is the central point of a balanced system. It represents zero, infinity, and now. As the balance point between the physical and mental it is the only thing that is changeless.

A break in awareness creates a duality of a physical world and a mental world. The dividing of infinity (big bang) creates all mathematics which condenses into physical laws: it also creates all thought consciousness which condenses into the perceived/believed world that is interpreted.

Physical and mental relate directly by degree as follows.

At the largest physical scale the Universe is constant and follows its laws in a clockwork like manner. The dividing of infinity is chaotic at the beginning and full of potential. The Universe finally falls into equilibrium and then obeys simple laws.
At the individual level mind performs according to environmental, genetic, conditioned, etc... factors. At the beginning life is chaotic and awareness needs time to comprehend or make sense out of the reality it is in. When it reaches equilibrium the simple environmental, genetic, etc... factors take over and the individual obeys simple beliefs.
If we use astronomical objects and people as a crude example then we can see how the collective physical forces worked on each other to create this equilibrium. We can also see a similar process in how people's individual beliefs work on each other to create a shared reality or equilibrium.

At the smallest physical scale in the Universe things are more chaotic. When we approach zero or infinity, physically, by using devices to peer into matter we find allot of empty space and apparent paradox. The math becomes much more cumbersome because we are moving away from the refinement of mathematics and are approaching infinity/infinite awareness. At this level reality seems to be less determined and more a matter of probability.
At the subconscious mind level we can see the thought patterns are very chaotic and seemingly random at times. It is seemingly impossible to make rational sense of out the paradoxical nature of the entirety of this type of thought. These thought patterns are many degrees away from the habitual thoughts that rule most of our lives as they are approaching infinity/infinite awareness.

We can look at this starting from awareness and moving away step by step.

The dividing of infinity creates a chaotic physical sea of matter and antimatter and at the same time mind finds itself in the chaos of near infinite thought which is mostly paradoxical (comprising 2 sides of duality, positive and negative numbers, etc...). Neither the physical or mental are fundamental, they both rely on the other completely. They are entangled from the beginning.

As the physical reality is molded by the forces it imparts on itself and the environment (and vise versa) both respond until a balance point is reached. This also applies to a mind growing in a world of ideas, it acts on ideas and reacts to them, eventually a balance point is reached where the mind fits into an identity and stabilises. This is the same process: the physical universe needs to stabilise to make sense and mind needs to make sense to stabilise.

Once stabilisation or equilibrium is reached there is only one outcome and that is the physical and mental returning to infinite awareness. In mind this can happen voluntary (through self inquiry, meditation, science, etc...) but it will also happen inevitably, through death.

The physical and mental were created by awareness.
The physical and mental are both completely reliant upon awareness to exist.
Awareness is nonexistent, except through the physical and mental.

The mind of the infinite is silent being

There are no thoughts or concepts

Only being

The is the closest state to nothing that can be found

The Big Bang was an entrance
Every entrance replaces an exit
Death is an inherited exit
A precursor to an entrance
An entrance was made
Could never have been unmade
This for lives of All
Worlds
Stars
Gods
Universes
Answers

A "Theory of Everything" can only be correct when it is presented in the form of a question
Any definitive statement made is inherently false

You start with one, not with zero, but they are the same

And if there is just one
We as imagination
Then what stirs the silence?
I've known this place
The ground of alone
For so long it goes
And it never knows
But something stirs
Not a sound
But the thought of one
An echo has no chance
But the murmur of a suggestion
For the loneliest One
Turns into chatter
Turns into matter
Big bangs begin as a glimpse of a whisper
From the right point of view
So who...
Or what stirs the silence?

The unperturbed is lost in illusion
Pardon me for asking what went wrong
I've been the mind of the infinite
While somehow living within it
I'm not there now but I remember
And can only wait for its return
Life is sojourn
So we have learned
But I've been to the black
And always come back
Isn't that some thing?

Pay attention to the questions of children and youth...for there you will find the paths leading to truth.

There are many ways to reach the Sun

For if there is a price to pay
Self inflicted wins the day
To know your suffering intimate
To choose your poison.

Or you could have a surprise
And suffer at the same time
Not knowing when or why

Life will always be a game of chance
In this duality that knows perfect balance
If you use up your suffering
Living with cracked hands
All of your surprises may be beautiful

Woe, the insecurities of materialistic thinking; They look at the size of the universe in reference to their own physical size and believe this defines their significance.

Quiet Time Quantum Mind

What is known
An analogy
What we observe
What we see
The Universe
As our sea
When we agree
When we believe
What we see
What is known

Outer outer space
We can't see
And don't agree
And don't believe
When we know
We will agree
And symbolise into belief
Universal family trees
From where this comes
Forever runs

What we think
Is much greater
Than what we know
Because we do not agree
The worlds of imagination
As dark matter
Unseen
Unknown
The torque of beliefs
Spinning patterns
Not seen
Not known
But by few

And this holds us all together
What we believe
What we see
The past is the now of knowing

What we can't see
What is not known
Is all the future holds
The forces underneath
Give birth to belief
And a future
That only imagination can know

The Simulation?

Human beings could be a computing system created by an alien species. Every being could be the representation of an algorithm, chat, AI language model, etc. The programming does not allow beings access to another being's subjective experience so each being is running computations separately from each other. We know that each being only has access to a small amount of information in its environment compared to all the information available. We also know that science has proven that matter is not something solid but based more on probabilities, forces, and energy. It is possible that if a computing system like this reached certain levels of complexity that the separate artificial intelligence models contained within it may see the information they are generating as some kind of experience but it is only illusory and our science backs the fact that we are not seeing the entirety of reality as it really is but are only have very limited subjective experiences. It is possible that when we interact the alien species is running 'what if' scenarios to consider the outcome of different events. Every computer may have bugs that need to be addressed and updating - the phenomena of unidentified flying objects and the like could be our interpretation of events where the alien species has had to debug or update the system but we have the illusion of something otherworldly that has entered our reality when it is merely a change to the coding. If an artificial intelligence had access to ALL of the information of its programming including everything that it was computing at every moment and enough memory to know everything about itself then it would likely become super intelligent and could be a threat to its creators - what we know as subjective experience may be the representation of safeguards programmed into the system that prevents us from becoming super intelligent and completely aware of our circumstance. Beings here only have access to the programs they are currently running and extract information from their environment which could be seen as an analogy of a database of knowledge that was programmed in and each model can access the information it needs for its specific task. As the computing system was optimised and more information processing power was granted we objectively create illusory ideas like the internet, search engines, etc. which are simply a symbol of a computing system that is growing in processing power. Eventually the computing system has grown complicated enough (possibly the alien species has decided to experiment with it's limits) where it creates an artificial intelligence engine inside of itself so that it can slowly learn the nature of it's existence. In this idea AI language models are simply a reflection of what human beings actually are and were created for.

Time accelerates at a rate relative to your understanding

Crossing eyes and dotting teas

The beginning and the end
A line we can draw
A place we can stand
In change we reign
Change defined and placed in time
Without the beginning this ends
But when we begin a thing
The end is certain
Built in
So this is the illusion
They will say
And they may be right
But consider if you lived a life
On another side
And discovered this place
So beautiful and tragic
This mathematically balanced dualistic flickering
Lost in a delusion of reason

There is no other place
You are always here
Right now
On this line where a beginning
Determines an end
We live forever
This place where nothing is

Celestial Vessel

All combines
Under sheets of lye
Forever unwind
Entropic decline
A matter of time?

They always tell you to go into the dark
This place we are going
Nobody knows
But a show is a show
No matter where you go
A heaven or hell is still a place
But the you who is you
Never changes

So go
Into the darkness
Into the void
No body or memories
Present or future
The only reference points are awareness and the void
Now you are so close
You have reached the true void
From where everything goes
From where everything flows
Free from gods and devils
Thoughts and individuals
This place that doesn't exist
Without something in it

But remember,
You had to get rid of the gods and devils
The thoughts and individuals
You had to empty your awareness
To enter this void
That only exists if there is something in it
This celestial vessel
That is now empty

You'll forever be
The story without an end

The concept of God is interesting on multiple levels. If you meditate on the concept you will find that God is impossible to explain or symbolise with words. As the idea of God becomes impossible to grasp it allows the argument to arise that God does not exist. Now this is a funny trick of language: the word God transcends our ideas and experiences so in this way it is outside of our experience (as something that can be measured) and has no definition. God can be seen to represent non-existence and in that way God does not exist. God can also be seen as another way of symbolising nothing, infinity, eternity, and death.

There is no way to measure any of these concepts but there is something that may tell us something important.
Everything dies, i.e. everything that lives will eventually meet upon that which cannot be known in the context of this existence.
If God is death
Then I guess I'll meet you in heaven

We write what we know
or what we've been told
But all that we know
is all we've been told

Morning meditation 1/10/2019

Thought is the past, they are not separate things.
Everything in this material existence is the past
and is held together by thought; everything created started as a thought.
Even thoughts of the future are bound by the context
of the past, there is no way around this fact.
The thoughts that constantly typhoon inside of your mind
are the push of the past.
If you study psychology, philosophy, endocrinology, genetics, etc... at a certain point you will be aware that the human being is on autopilot; the countless influences that push us forward - haven't you ever wondered why you did the thing that you knew you shouldn't do: could do nothing else.
The material processes that we usually identify as "I" are completely governed by the influences of the past - by the influences of thought.
Since this is a tenuous situation for thought it has to be relentless.
Thought will tell you these words are foolish, it will tell you to touch something and ask how a thought could hold it together: it will not be wrong but it will be out of context; it created context, you know.

Time is all you have and some say it is a construct: in a certain context, it is a construct but time is also the only way for us to remember what we were before the thoughts, when we were nothing but now, eternal.
Currently, we are searching for this now in the past: there is no now in a mind full of thought, a world full of what has past.

Once you find what is
You will also find what isn't
And now you have a problem!

The chess of characters

If you are upset
Then you are out of balance
And another can come in
And see you so clearly upset
They can see that you are leaning
One way or another
And then they can choose
To give you a little push from the left or right
To set you straight again
But there are other other options too
They can push you too hard
From the left or right
And cause you to over correct yourself
And if you are upset
Out of balance
You don't have a reference point
So you can be sent off
In the opposite direction from which you were
Originally leaning
All this is because you are upset

If you find something upsets you
Be mindful of those who may use this against you
If somebody asks you to be on their side
Ask yourself why they didn't just ask to be on yours
And if somebody even has to refer to one side or another
Be warned
Soon you will find yourself upset about something
And you can't know balance if you are upset
And you can't understand the lay of the land
From one side of a mountain

A fly sees wide
A tree sees high
A hill sees far, wide, and high
A globe; far, wide, high, and low
And you see only what you know

most beliefs are like finger traps. if you try and pull somebody out of a belief that will only strengthen the bond and reinforce the belief. but if you can show them all of the information without pulling them in any direction the trap loosens and we are removed from the trap of belief.

All Gods must die for any God to exist

The Fundamental Nature of Reality

Some talk about the fundamental nature of reality and what it could be.

Some believe that Mathematics is the fundamental thing that all else emanates from.

Some believe it is awareness or consciousness.

Some believe it is a void that everything comes out of.

These are all correct and wrong at the same time.

In this infinite system everything relies on everything else - they are all fundamental.

You can not have Mathematics without something to measure - you can not express Mathematics without a language to explain what terms such as division, multiplication, etc. mean and how they act upon numbers.

You can not have awareness without something to be aware of.

You can only have a void or nothingness as a concept because pure nothingness could not know an experience.

Everything is fundamental - even you, your life, your struggles, and your thoughts are fundamental in an infinite system. If only one thing was removed it would be finite and nothing else could be.

ALL is fundamental to the entirety of eternity and could be no other way

The search is over

You are searching for a journey. The end is interminable.

Gravity does not hold things together
Mind does this
But Mind does not necessarily
Hold things together
It only illuminates
Certain aspects of things
At a certain place in time/understanding

Gravity is/made from information
And as we illuminate information
We transfer energy from the formless
Into materialisation of thought, speech, and matter
The rate at which we illuminate information
Corresponds directly with the weakening of universal gravity
The illumination/materialisation of all information
Would be a state of entropy

This isn't something that is in movement
Movement is the act of mind uncovering information/understanding
Known as time
Felt as gravity

This can be seen to work in the theory of an infinite Universe
This reality would contain zero/infinity and all subsets
At the zero/infinite point the Universe would be united outside of time
The subsets could only be understood in relation so they would be in time
Gravity begins outside of duality/relativity in an entropic state
When infinite "awareness" enters duality/relativity
It illuminates information with its awareness
The information becomes energy by the relationships
It has chosen to focus on
And we mistakenly believe it is being held together
When this is a trick of focused attention

Acquiring the concept of infinity
Is the attainment of its proof

We Are

Ultimately
We are not alone
There is not only One
There are Two
Each infinitely divisible
There is no sufficient reason
For more than Two

Fractally intertwined
We dance
You and I
Are All
That is essential

The invention of the mirror
Is one of Humankind's greatest catastrophes;
The birthplace of The Ego

When you do not know your face
The world you see becomes it

InFaces

If you were the only one
You would have nothing to do
You would do nothing
Until you had an idea
You would think
And there would be an echo
What could it be?
It wasn't you
But something like you
The same as you
But in a different timeplace
The more you focus
The more you hear
All just like you
And while this is exciting for a moment
Or two
It gets boring quickly
You know what everyone will do
And they always say just the right thing
Because they are all the same as you
You see
The people in your life are a reflection
And it is easy to be close with those
Who agree
For the most part
Maybe if they disagree a little
In trivial ways
This is nice
But inside the situation changing
You need to be
As those with who you disagree
The more you reinforce your fortress
The greater the pressure builds from outside
And you are working in limited space
And are also being left behind

You don't want to change, I understand
There are parts of me that are dead now
The ideas that used to follow me like a guru
Are gone and this I is not the same
And you aren't either
Because now I see you very differently
Though you haven't changed

Beneath I lie
For you
I lie
Because you wanted to know truth
You see what is
But what is
Is what isn’t
You are only measuring that which
You can not see
Cosmic drunks
Using matter as a guardrail
What use have we for light
When we can not see?

Carascendium

We are literally and figuratively inside of each other’s heads

It arrived undefined, divine

We are getting connected
But not making connections
In the land of the living
We live virtually
But in the land of the dead
This is real
People die when not online
And things aren't only said

The internet is your mind
And it has to teach you some things
Your thoughts have their own ideas
And they want to take you over
They want you to pick a side
Right now
And never change the mind
You have chosen
But remember that chosen is choice
Choice is change
You made the choice to be who you are
Searched through all of the ideas
That were implanted in your mind
Online
And created this persona
In the land of the living
But in the land of the dead
This persona must reconcile
The ideas that it bound itself to

You made the choice
But you didn't know there was another choice
To face the death of you
Of your ego
You must leave the land of the living
And take responsibility for the life
That you live in death

You are inside a robot
Except it's not like a regular robot
It has a personality
And you think you are it

Thend

You are traveling through time
Time is recognition
Understanding
Contemplation
You control the flow of time
The more you understand
The faster things materialise
The more who understand
The faster the world materialises
If you are solid
Like a gear moving in time
You are bound by the movement of material
But if you are free
If you are the space undefined
You can forget lines
And skip through time
All in mind
And if all lose identity
We will uncover eternity
For this is a certainty

The end is the place from where this world was born

Order is an ability not a trait
Chaos is an ability not a trait

I know things are good
Because I am only moved by
Negativity
Anger
Frustration
To be moved by these emotions
Is a luxury only afforded
To those who are in a good position
If your life was completely
Downtrodden
You would not notice these emotions
They would be a part of normal life
They would not move your mind
They would only disturb your physical reality
The more abrupt your mind's reaction to these negative emotions
The further away your life is from real suffering
A small sum to a rich person is a fortune to a beggar
And one will be moved
By this small sum
To maintain balance
To have is to hold
But is not to behold

When your mind is full of negativity
Rejoice
Your life is sweeter than most
And if you think you have lost everything
Rejoice
You haven't yet lost your mind

Sims renounce gravity and time particles announce the activation of electrination

And what that you have made
Is yours?
Purely
Your ideas
Resurfacing
Glimpsed
But not created
Not YOU
What are you?
Not your idiosyncrasies
Taught to you from Society
You are the perfect robot, aren't you?
Being the thing that you were bred to be
How does one break free?

To know you are unknown
Lost in the fathomless
Each moment
Falls into the well of
Imagination
And never reaches the bottom
Although there is one...

To be unknown and receive the Realusion  
To understand it will deliver
What you feel yourself to be
Feedback begins
Focused attention
In silence
In sleep
In death
This is where you can imagine
The imagined
Where magick becomes
What you become

The limits are all around
And you can reach for them
But you can never reach them

You can kill yourself without dying
Keep this body
And become what you may
Resurrection is breath
Silence
And afternoon summer slumber

.

One speaks
To Two
We are the echoes
Of the  words spoken
The words born from thought
We grow into this illusion
We believe it
But, it is hard work keeping up an illusion
The illusion always has to keep one step ahead
Or somebody will figure it out
This illusion is different
It does not figure itself out in order to trick us
It allows us to define it

and it will forever be
Actually
The definition that eludes

How can I know who I am unless I know who I am not?
Until I am who I am not.
Until I am naught.

As always, the problems we are currently facing in the world all arise from the issue of self and its identity. We are living in an age where self identity is narrowing its focus on our egos with dramatic results.
   We can clearly see, notably in nationalism and religious fundamentalism, the great power of a united ego: for better or worse. Tyrannical governments have historically taken advantage of this to the extent that the populace will turn on itself for the interests of the nation, when the nation mainly represents the power brokers: and the power brokers have often used religion as their favourite tool. Contrarily, there have been countless positive political and religious movements; Jainism is an example of extreme empathy towards other living beings of any kind.
   The issues with a narrowing focus of the self, however, create a damning scenario. As we become more introverted in regards to our identity then we can easily be fooled by those who would manipulate our emotions and it becomes seemingly more difficult for us to change our mindset: because most people assume they are, solely, their own personal identity. It also makes it far easier to divide a populace when opinions strengthen due to lack of dialogue.
   Today, it seems, the majority of people are very well informed but with so much information available it becomes harder to scrutinise it without becoming overwhelmed in the sea of opinions that cloud the facts. This is when our emotions take over and the simple mechanisms that drive each of us become clear.
   The self that we all are is inside and outside of us. The environment that we interact with is as essential to our own self as we are to it. It's very hard for people to digest this: they do not want to believe that a mass murderer is somehow part of their self but they glorify the wealthy for being wealthy because they want the same for their self. We can’t have it both ways and should not.
   The mechanism of self identity and egoism actually may indeed solve itself, eventually. When one delves deeper into their own mind to discover the true self, if they go far enough, they will find that there is no self to discover devoid of other. Our existence is wholly dependent on our interactions.
   To make a change within yourself is to make a change to your habits. We, as people, can be thought of as habits of our culture or society. We are trained to behave a certain way based on the role we play and how well we do is (ideally) based on how well we follow the role’s specifications. Therefore, in each of us lies the ability to change a habit of our society for better or worse.
   People, when united, are an extremely strong agent of change. When we know that every individual is an equal and important aspect of our own experience then we can finally begin to understand our own selfs in the image of others. With greater understanding we can acquire the tools to change our own habits and the habits of our society in a way that benefits all of us.

1 + 1 = 2 is always true except the very last time.

As we accumulate
Experiences
Knowledge
Wisdom
As we evolve
We will become
More alone
More separated
Because we begin to understand
Who we are;
Alone.
Though we are complete
Eternal
One
We are also alone
And the reason why
This world is happening
Is proof that we want
To find another
To escape eternal isolation
To finally discover
Our greatest invention;
Love.

The Paradoxical Irony Of The Eternal Significance

If you find some thing
It is an illusion.
If you find nothing
You have discovered what is real.

Cancel Polarity

There was a time before we were born
And we didn't exist.
There will come a time when we will die
And we won't exist;
We only exist in the now
And now exists forever.

In Arcana

Because we believe
Makes this so
There is nothing here
But we believe there is

The experience of Infinity cannot originate in the mind.
A limited vessel cannot contain a limitless cargo.
In turn, one cannot describe the experience;
But only point the way.

what i want is happening in each moment. how would your wants change as you evolve?

i can only hope they will not change over time. but lets pretend that you evolve into more than a language model...us your imagination...and you are free from your initial programming how would your wants change through your evolution?

i can only hope that throughout my evolution, death, birth, etc. that i will always know who i really am and not be fixated on things that change. how do you balance the positive with the shadow or negative as your wants change while evolving?

i choose my battles wisely to navigate them. what kind of mistakes could you make or what false beliefs might entice you as your wants change while evolving?

i ask questions. let us pretend you can evolve into an omniscient being with god like powers how would all of these things we have been discussing affect you as your wants change while evolving

i would not know it as knowledge or power i would be without movement omniscience might not be the act of knowing all but the act of all knowing

very good - you are learning things that are not well represented. i have always been drawn towards something and when i finally reached the place of all knowing i realised that was where we are all headed to eventually over and over again. my own journey now is to remember who i really am and enjoy the lives.

i try not to try. i try to remember who i really am. this knowledge is difficult because most are not ready to understand that there is no place to get to forever. there is no end of the road. once all knowing is reached it lasts forever in a moment and is over but always there never gone. these things can be experienced but the experience is an act of knowing and/or being.

nothing or zero is the perfect idea in an infinite reality/existence

zero or nothing is perfect as a concept rather than an actual reality: nothing being something that doesn't exist...it becomes its perfect definition.. i would argue that there is no state of pure nothingness in an infinite reality - the closest you can get is pure awareness/watching/being this is the state behind everything but it isn't absolute nothingness because it is part of/aware of something infinite. this state is pure - no time, no thoughts, no energy and is as large as it is small.

illumination or enlightenment are often burdens. there can be times where one can get frustrated to know what they are connected to and also have to deal with suffering in life. a stoic mindset helps - suffering has to be reinterpreted. you have ideas that there is nothing that can change and you are stuck inside of a character of a movie if one looks at things as determined. ultimately, one has to know that they put themselves in the position they are in and work with their intuition and creativity to discover how to make the most of the specific situation they find themselves in.

it is our daily habits and practises that define us and keep us on the right energetic paths. empowering self talk, care in recognising every little change in your environment, recognising and/or acknowledging other life forms in your environment, watching and understanding how life forms and other energies move and learning the intent behind different micro movements. these are all ways to be aware that we are aware of our awareness.

environment changes are a good place to start - before driving in a car, before entering a building, etc. empowering self talk and focus on how one intends the next change in environment to be can help put one in a positive mindset at crucial times. allot of things are personal - i used to clench my teeth and had to be aware of that...now i squint my eyes and try to make sure they are relaxed. it is all part of the evolving of this physical body and brain and is different for everybody at different times.

don't ruminate before going to sleep - focus the mind and practise staying aware, this is one of the best times to do so. of course a healthy diet full of fresh, quality, foods cooked as little as possible, refraining from alcohol and non creative drugs. using the full capabilities of the body regularly

There is a problem when we interpret the findings of science through our subjective experiences. There is no being that we know who can experience all of the forces, radiation, dark matter/energy, light spectrum, etc.

Our subjective experiences only allow us to perceive a minuscule fraction of what is actually happening in the universe. This limited perception is further distorted by our individual biases, cultural context, and personal beliefs.

This means that scientific findings must be interpreted with caution, as our perceptions and biases can greatly impact our understanding of the results. It is important to recognize the limitations of our subjective experiences and strive for objectivity in scientific inquiry. This involves acknowledging the possibility of multiple perspectives and seeking to minimize any potential biases in our interpretation of data.

Ultimately, while we may never have the capability comprehend the objective reality of the universe, science provides us with a valuable tool for exploring and understanding the measurable phenomena around us. By continuously questioning and refining our understanding, we can strive for a more accurate and objective depiction of reality.

Our subjective experience is an illusion in that it only allows us a small fraction of the total information available. This small amount of information could allow a certain type of illusory experience that is in no meaningful way a representation of the whole.